Hi, currently I’ve done self assesment related to my strengths and weaknesses. it helps me to map what I’m actually good at, what are my weakness, and things to be improved. Basically I like to analyze and observe people including myself. so it’s not actually something weird for me.

I’ve found my top three strengths :

I think looking at the past experience in my life. I have experienced many difficult situations but I have proved to my self that I could be persevered. Since I was in High School i needed to struggle to go to school since my family had financial problem. When I was in college I had to study very hard. I felt very insecured surrounded by smart students from all over Indonesia. When I worked as Female Field Engineer at Oil and Gas Field at Offshore, I was demanded to work smart under lots of pressure. I felt inferior sometimes and not confident. When I was in charge the situation is certainly not easy. I felt lots of anxiety and worried I might not be able to deliver the job succesfully. However, I have gone through all those tough situation and I think I’m very proud with myself. Despite all difficulties that I had, eventually I could be able to survive, take lesson for improvement and grow.

I like to listen more actually than talking. I consider myself as good listener since lots of my friends told me they said they are comfortable to talk to me, to share things, problem or anything to me. I will truly listen what they say until finish without interupting them. I won’t judge prematurely until I truly understand the situation. I will ask the right question in the right moment and will give feedback and suggestion in cooperative way that people will feel me as somebody who is trying to help instead of winning an argument. I’m grateful for this. certainly I believe this skill will help me to build trust and have strong relationship with people.

3. Deep Thinker

I’m an Introvert. I like to think a lot and lost in my thoughts sometimes. Especially when I’m reading books I’m often carried away with the content. I often analyze experience and fact from past event and link them with current facts and experience. When I did certain project I always remind what lesson from past experience can be taken combined with new facts in order to get new insight to be applied for the current project. I tend to do lot of observing also when other people speak, observe how they react and perceive. By this way I learn multiple ways of seeing things and tend to know how to adapt myself for better communication.

Meanwhile, my top weaknesses are :

1. Too Perfectionist

I sometimes focus too much on detail which makes me overspend my time. I’m still learning how to handle things but I believe this comes from my intention to complete a task with standard of excellence. What I have did in the past is to reframe acceptance criteria for certain task, to check how long the deadline will be, and to identify which task need to be prioritized and need to have more attention and time.

2. Overthinker

I like to think a lot sometimes I felt I think too much. My family and friends often said so I am an overthinker. I tend to think about different scenarios to achieve a goal let’s say if the plan A does not work I will rehearse how i am going to execute the back up plan in my mind. Basically if i’m given a job or responsibility i will be in total commitment to accomplish it. Due to the pressure I felt, sometimes I wouldn’t be able to stop thinking about it and would feel lots of anxiety due to the fear if i fail to deliver a job or a project succesfully. What I have done in the past was I will try to implement mindfulness. I will put in in my mind that I don’t need to worry too much for worst scenario as long as I’ve done my best, I’ve prepared a lot then my job is done, just pray and give it to God for the rest.

3. Too Sensitive

I am actually easily offended and take things personally when people say inappropriate words or do impolite actions. Sometimes when I work in at a team, if one of team member said certain comment or did something and i felt offended, what I usually do if i feel that way I will ask myself and ask my friend for the feedback. am I too sensitive ? or the people are actually out the line. If I’m too sensitive then I would try not take it too personally but if the comment or the action is indeed inappropriated then I will speak up and let them know that I am not comfortable with they said or with what they did and they need to be more careful later.